I used to be a nervous sort of person. I think despite my friendly demeanor, I am actually inherently very shy which contributed to my perpetual state of nervousness.

I don’t know. It has gotten much better over the last few years. Nursing really left me no room for that sort of thought process. I can’t be nervous when I’m talking to my patients or when I’m explaining to them what sorts of things they have to do to keep themselves healthy or what their medication is. I can’t be nervous when they tell me they’re scared or worried about a procedure or their condition. For this I am more grateful than any words could possibly express. My choice in career has brought out the best in me. I find that I am more compassionate, empathetic, and driven than I ever was before I started this journey. I am focused and ready to take on challenges. I’m ambitious and most importantly, I am confident. Not only in my abilities as a nurse, but in myself as a person. I feel good when I’m doing what I do. It has made me realize that I am a lot of things I wished I was.

I still have my days, though. Who doesn’t? My palms get sweaty when I have to give a speech. My heart races when a cute boy flashes me a smile. I feel like I’m going to have a panic attack when I have a serious interview. I haven’t quite mastered the art of being introduced to people either. But, all in all, it is so much better than it ever was.

There are a lot of things in my life that are out of my control which have made these past few months nearly unbearable. It’s like every day there’s something new I have to start worrying about. I don’t talk about it a lot because, well, I don’t like to. But I will say that having this attitude both about myself and about my life has made all the difference in how I’ve come to cope with life’s misfortunes. 

I’m not a particularly religious woman, my friends, but I am sort of spiritual and I firmly believe that good things are bound to happen to good people. Karma exists!

All I have to do is wait. :)